tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37273012498738792242024-03-13T23:23:29.836-06:00Giant Climber"If I have seen further, it is by standing on the shoulders of Giants." -Isaac NewtonAlyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.comBlogger17125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-33549210014214668762012-05-22T21:50:00.000-06:002012-05-22T21:50:04.849-06:00If You Really Knew Me.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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If you really knew me, you'd know that I can't get motivated. </div>
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If you really knew me, you'd know that I over think everything. </div>
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If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm a choosing perfectionist. </div>
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You'd know that I'm a horrible speller. And that I love making new friends and talking to those I've always known, but never really had a full conversation with. <br />
If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm not the brightest crayon in the box. You'd know that i'm struggling trying to graduate high school. If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm singing to myself 24/7. You would know that I'm always dreaming. You would know that I've been reading this out loud to myself over and over and over. And over again. And over again. And again. Trying to make myself happy. But that's a lost cause.<br />
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If you really knew me, you'd know I don't speak to my family. But I would take a bullet for them. You'd know I would save my friends before myself. If you really knew me, you'd know that I have a sensitive soul. You would know that I love country music and am not afraid to sing it to you until you agree with me. Even if you won't admit it.<br />
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If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm terrified I'll never get married. You would know that I'm a girl. Even if my pen name is a boys. If you really knew me, you'd know that I'm afraid I'll never be able to have kids. You would know that I don't sleep. That I can't live in reality. You would know that I'm indecisive.<br />
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If you really knew me, you'd know that I re-read all of our texting conversations. You would know not to lie to me. Or to tell me half truths, or to promise me anything. Because no one keeps promises. A promise is just a empty loaded, guilt trip, that gives you false hope to live your so called "reality" on.<br />
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If you really knew me, you would know that I'm trying to make my parents proud, but am failing.<br />
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<br />Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-84194906986247403612012-05-13T11:17:00.000-06:002012-05-17T22:19:50.981-06:00Bittersweet Hell.<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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It's a Sunday. 8:00 p.m.<br />
I finished all my homework and am sitting on the couch watching a movie. Looking at the clock every 10 minutes, counting down on how much time I have left before I fall asleep.<br />
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My life is average. I wake up at 6, pee, brush my teeth, take a shower, do my make-up, hair, I get dressed, pack my backpack, and head to school around 7:21.<br />
I come home from school around 2:32 everyday, grab a granola bar, and head to work at the elementary school. I stay there until 4:15 and then come home and eat. I put off doing my homework until 8 that night and finally settle in and finish it up before tomorrow. Once I finish the homework and can't put it off anymore, I get ready for bed.<br />
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I pray every night. Sorry to get religious on you. But I feel like it's an important detail to this story. I pray that I will be able to have a sleepless night. Literally. Because in my average life, I have dreams. Not the: I hope to be president one day, kind of dream. But the dreams that mothers wish are sweet. And the dreams that sheep try to count. I have dreams. And I have nightmares.<br />
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One day, sleeping turned into my enemy.<br />
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When I fall asleep, I dream of everything and anything. I have dreams that don't make sense. I have dreams that make me smile. Dreams that make me wish. And some that make me wait.<br />
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If my dreams come true, my nightmares come true. It stated off as a bittersweet gift. Turned out to be walking Hell. I won the lottery -- All my friends left me. I received a kiss from my crush -- My parents die. I could never win. Until that one night.<br />
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It was a Sunday. 8:00 p.m.<br />
I finished all my homework and was sitting on the couch watching a movie. Looking at the clock every 10 minutes, counting down on how much time I have left before I fell asleep.<br />
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I keeled down to pray, for that sleepless night I wish upon every night. I drag myself in bed and fight to keep my eyes open. I loose. My eyes close, and that's where my story began.<br />
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2. I don't know. </div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-91224645561831911382012-03-26T18:33:00.007-06:002012-03-26T19:12:56.526-06:00Empty Post.<div><span><span></span></span><br /></div><div><br /></div><a href="http://jordanleah.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/shine1.jpg?w=440&h=240&crop=1" style="font-family: Georgia, serif; font-size: 100%; font-style: normal; font-variant: normal; font-weight: normal; line-height: normal; "><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 440px; height: 240px;" src="http://jordanleah.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/shine1.jpg?w=440&h=240&crop=1" border="0" alt="" /></a><span><span><span><span><br /><br />My music is too loud. My back is stiff from sitting in the same position for hours looking at the screen, too afraid to write anything without a prompt. I know your judging me right now.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span><div><span><span><span><span>I know your secret.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>I've been reading everyone's blogs, trying to find inspiration. But all I'm accomplishing is the feeling of longing. Of pity. Knowing I'll never be as good.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>I'm not enough.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>This post won't work. It won't be what I dream of. I won't reread this, because I know there's no point. No point in fixing my grammar mistakes, or wondering if I'm making sense, or if it "flows." Whatever that means.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>I wish I could shine.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>Not too shiny though. I don't want to make you blind. Well, maybe. . . If you were blind, you wouldn't have to read this post. Therefore, you wouldn't be a witness to this writing funeral.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>Why would I make this any longer, if I know you probably already stopped reading. Why would I want to talk about enjoying life, or living to the fullest, or maybe even death, if you're just going to think what YOU want?<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>You suck.<br /><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span>Stop thinking about yourself, and the blogs that are "good." Start listening to others. Help me shine too.</span></span></span></span><div><span> </span></div><div><span><br /></span></div><div><span><br /></span></div></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-88315912729853623542012-03-12T23:03:00.000-06:002012-03-12T23:08:03.118-06:00My Release.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><br /><a href="http://pinkvisions.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/402034_228703133892627_215889268507347_462445_1619530959_n_large.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 500px; height: 313px;" src="http://pinkvisions.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/402034_228703133892627_215889268507347_462445_1619530959_n_large.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-89678273025483996552012-03-12T23:01:00.000-06:002012-03-12T23:02:18.112-06:00Sleep.<div><span > Why do you even care? What difference would it make if I sleep or dream? They don’t matter anyways, but why do you care? Thanks though for your ever encouraging words. But whatever. I don’t even know what I am supposed to be writing. I think I just want to prove that I can type fast.</span></div><div><span ><br /></span></div><div><span > I don’t know. Stop talking. I know. Who listens to my thoughts? No one. But I don’t mind. I really don’t. Okay, well maybe I do. But who needs to know? Who would like to know I can type fast? All they will ever see is the finished product after I’m done typing. If they even finish reading what I have to say. Probably not. Why do I care? Why do I think? Should I even be human? What if I weren't would you care? Would you call the police and have them take me to rock bottom? Is that even a place? Trees. Wait, what? I don’t know and I probably won’t ask or delete what I just said. Why am I typing again? I can’t remember what my goal of this paper was. Maybe it’s to just take up time from work, because I’ve been sitting here for the last hour and a half. Staring at nothing and thinking about typing fast. And if I’m going to mess this up and get fired. It’s always a possibility. Why is there a bunch of green markings on this page? Can you see those or do they disappear like everything else I accomplish? Why do people erase my achievements, but never my mistakes? Do I really matter that much that you have to find everything wrong with me, to find something good with you? I would feel ashamed if I were you.</span></div><div><span ><br /></span></div><div><span >If you didn't know, this post was about sleep.</span></div><div><span ><br /></span></div><div><span ><br /></span></div><div><span >Goodnight.</span></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-52486788138067244742012-03-04T17:44:00.002-07:002012-03-04T17:52:09.731-07:00I'd be Lying.<div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Won't you let me give you a hand?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I have an extra I'm not using</div><div style="text-align: center;">Won't you let me lighten your load?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I mean after all your legs are shaking</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">And I can understand</div><div style="text-align: center;">all I need is your hand</div><div style="text-align: center;">Oh, won't you take the fall?</div><div style="text-align: center;">It is me after all</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Won't you let me match your stride?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I can slow down if you want to</div><div style="text-align: center;">We can handle it side by side</div><div style="text-align: center;">What do you say girl, don't you want to?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">And I can understand</div><div style="text-align: center;">All I need is your hand</div><div style="text-align: center;">Oh, won't you take the fall?</div><div style="text-align: center;">It is me after all</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">I'd be lying if I ran away</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'd be lying if I ran away</div><div style="text-align: center;">And so I'll stay</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">But won't you let me by your man?</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'm strong enough you know that I can</div><div style="text-align: center;">Be the one to ease your mind</div><div style="text-align: center;">Ease your mind</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">And I can understand</div><div style="text-align: center;">All I need is your hand</div><div style="text-align: center;">Oh, won't you take the fall?</div><div style="text-align: center;">It is me after all</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">I'd be lying if I ran away</div><div style="text-align: center;">I'd be lying if I ran away</div><div style="text-align: center;">And so I'll stay</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">There is not much that you can do</div><div style="text-align: center;">To get me to run away from you</div><div style="text-align: center;">There is not much that you can do</div><div style="text-align: center;">To get me to run away from you</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-62815468124055400072012-03-04T16:54:00.003-07:002012-03-04T17:31:30.362-07:00Courage.<a href="https://encrypted-tbn1.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRgRJ_xJRzmQHpTxhqAFGy7OhhT3AJQrVa-jx-1b4zO4lbksO0rGQ"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 259px; height: 194px;" src="https://encrypted-tbn1.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRgRJ_xJRzmQHpTxhqAFGy7OhhT3AJQrVa-jx-1b4zO4lbksO0rGQ" border="0" alt="" /></a><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 100%; ">Would you walk into a burning building? </span></div></span><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Would you walk into the burning building if a loved one was trapped inside? </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">Would you walk into the burning building if a stranger was trapped inside?</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>While sitting around a campfire we all say that smoke follows beauty. We all move to get out of the way when the smoke blows towards us. I love the smell of campfires. But I hate the leftover smell they leave the next day, when you're in your clean house. The heroes in this picture smell like fire and will smell like fire the next day. And the next. They don't get leftovers. They walk into burning buildings for strangers. <br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Firefighters get paid as much as teachers. So how come we always hear teachers joke and complain about payment, but firefighters say nothing? </div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>I don't know. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe they do complain, and I never hear it. But what I do know, is that these men and women are heroes. They take courage to a new level. My courage is talking to someone in a new class and whether to get up in the mornings or not. They walk into burning buildings for strangers. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>I know I'm not the best writer. I know I'm probably not the blog, that people check to see if I've posted something new. Sometimes I focus too much on the: I suck. And, I'm never going to be as good as her. Or as smart as him. So I literally might not be walking into burning buildings weekly, but I am being myself. And that's courage to me. I am walking into burning buildings. I get burned. But my skin grow back stronger. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-2084411098012311892012-02-27T19:56:00.002-07:002012-02-27T20:23:28.462-07:00Team Adam.<a href="https://encrypted-tbn2.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS5YrCx_WSyzxyoS4PJ5nS-A1ZHG0NyBnnJCrmeGI9jWZJpHitU"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 259px; height: 195px;" src="https://encrypted-tbn2.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS5YrCx_WSyzxyoS4PJ5nS-A1ZHG0NyBnnJCrmeGI9jWZJpHitU" border="0" alt="" /></a><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 100%; ">If I was on The Voice, I would choose team Adam. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 100%; "><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn2.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQ5sExDia81BHqjkdRmWRyb4gYNspHwUCZUY5q7qUORWe9IbXNJ" /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn1.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcR9W2_ykU-UhaysxD8C5eL4_Wg1rNmRrZZoL4S__ExNQn7llnIlDw" /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQnUmz_EJFT_IFEcgJhQMsmo9_8mPZeTdnCGvGeaplM1PbWBrnB" /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTXMkVtwyUdygJcJJyixmh83s88P749ERiQhd_X_rwdxVOnHLMbBQ" /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">He reminds me of Nelson.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-91793334285602574272012-02-27T19:30:00.003-07:002012-02-27T19:55:45.672-07:00I Hope You Always Find a Reason to Smile.<div><br /></div><div><br /></div><a href="https://encrypted-tbn2.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS-euVSf-DL6t_xkvWaMmJQk13FL-vhG3-HEGrzME64PTmgvOnf"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 225px; height: 225px;" src="https://encrypted-tbn2.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS-euVSf-DL6t_xkvWaMmJQk13FL-vhG3-HEGrzME64PTmgvOnf" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 100%; ">Death can wait. Live now. Because the next step you take might be blind, but that blind step could be the next best thing. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 100%; ">Don't question it.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: 100%; ">Death can wait. Live now.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn0.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQK8PD8vAK8xLQEF7euEYdsnZDkMxerKYdKwSIku74ItuolhHGkog" /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-68817335434722617202012-02-18T18:34:00.003-07:002012-02-18T19:15:49.268-07:00If I Was Born Blind<div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; "><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, serif; "><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;">If I was born blind,</div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>would I care</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>would others be kind</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>or would it be too much to bare?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>If I was born as a drum,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>would I care</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>would others play me with their thumbs</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>or would they have an affair with a guitar, would they dare?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>If I was born a dog,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>would I care</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>would others try throwing me a log</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>or would they just stare?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>I was born a human,</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>do I care</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>others are watching me like they watched Truman</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>and judging me by what I wear. </span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>do I care?</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>I would say no, but I would be lying.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>Trying to be true to myself is harder then I thought it would be. I say I don't care what people say or think about me, but I do.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>I believe everyone cares to an extent.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span>Humans lie.</span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span><br /></span></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcT0IAv6fvi_w5nt1DmWMLnLjMcbIcIj451mdafOPkFo4s7zP0yG" /> </div><div style="text-align: center;"><span><br /></span></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-64335616467690415832012-02-18T17:58:00.006-07:002012-02-18T18:04:14.597-07:00Fear<a href="https://encrypted-tbn1.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQcsGw-D-Tcy2SAMc_lWp2utDrCr-vySnUYiANR2vd468HYr9Iv"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 201px; height: 251px;" src="https://encrypted-tbn1.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQcsGw-D-Tcy2SAMc_lWp2utDrCr-vySnUYiANR2vd468HYr9Iv" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> </span><span><span>I can't breathe.</span></span></b><div><b><br /></b></div><div><b>I don't want to breathe. Holding my breath so you won't hear me, I close my eyes and count to 100. Pleading and praying to God to let me live. I control my sobs while straining to listen to your movements. Trying to figure out how close you are to discovering that your not alone.</b></div><div><b><br /></b></div><div><span><b><span>Crouched in the corner, trying to vanish by squeezing my legs to my chest, and hiding my nose into my knees. Secretly hoping to </span>suffocate<span>. Silence.</span></b></span></div><div><span><span><b><br /></b></span></span></div><div><span><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> </span>Silence.</b></span></span></div><div><span><span><b><br /></b></span></span></div><div><span><span><b>. . . . . . . . . . . . . . nothing.</b></span></span></div><div><span><span><b><br /></b></span></span></div><div><span><b><span>I slowly lift my head, wanting to gain hope that you have left, but not taking the chance. Stretching out to my full height, I take the first tentative step towards the closed closet door. I see my shaking hand </span>timidly<span> push the door open slightly. Stop.</span></b></span></div><div><span><span><b><br /></b></span></span></div><div><span><b>What am I doing? My chest tightens, my vision goes white, my mind goes blank, I turn cold, sweat covers my body from in between my toenails to the roots of my hair. 1,000 pounds pushing into my shoulders. My heart floods. I'm afraid. My legs give out as I collapse to the floor hoping you can not smell my fear.</b></span></div><div><span><b><br /></b></span></div><div><span><b>I listen.</b></span></div><div><span><b><br /></b></span></div><div><span><b>I listen to the even breaths. . . .</b></span></div><div><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> </span></span> 1. .</b></span></div><div><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span> </span></span>2. .</b></span></div><div><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> </span> </span></span>3. .</b></span></div><div><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> </span> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></span></span></span>4. .</b></span></div><div><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> </span> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></span></span></span></span>5. .</b></span></div><div><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></span></span></span></span>6. .</b></span></div><div><span><b><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> </span> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre; "> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> </span> <span class="Apple-tab-span"> <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></span></span>7. . . seconds to realize that they're not mine.</b></span></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-15508917204338908002012-02-12T21:27:00.008-07:002012-02-12T22:11:54.464-07:00Pets that Peeve me<a href="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRxjovMYwTmCnUNAFn7xs0BXPTN8E4ie8SVlNeUa6ULJwAbF2RabA"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 259px; height: 194px;" src="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTNd9RS-jxz_SIqRHt8G62uObwOjfCxDKF0QOjiwI1suqA8qiZOFw" border="0" alt="" /></a><div><ul><li>Interrupting</li></ul><div><ul><li>Chewing with your mouth open</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Dog eared pages in books</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Loose change</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Two-faced people</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Tangled sheets</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Loose hair stuck on clothes</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Liars</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Science</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Eraser shavings </li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Toothpaste in the sink </li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Dull pencils</li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Wire hangers </li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Judging </li></ul></div><div><ul><li>Someone looking over my shoulder while I'm on the computer . . . . go away mom.</li></ul><div><br /></div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn0.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSAk1LyZ4tnsHOc_paUSf_sPhJ1rq-WMNUIB4t-maWc4wUDVxGV" /> </div><div><br /></div></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-65100219197936526172012-02-12T20:23:00.004-07:002012-02-12T21:26:18.431-07:00If You're Thinking About Me<div>If you're thinking about me:</div><div><br /></div>Like banks think about being robbed<div>like mosquitoes think about blood</div><div>like wishing wells think about pennies</div><div>like kids stealing those pennies</div><div>like parents think about their twenties</div><div>like dumbo thinks about flying</div><div><br /></div><div>If you're thinking about me like:</div><div><br /></div><div>Monsters think about closets</div><div>like parachutes think about working</div><div>like dumb kids smirking</div><div>like sunblock thinks about fighting</div><div>like toilets think about being cleaned</div><div>like umbrellas think about rain</div><div>and rain makes me think about you....</div><div><br /></div><div>But if you're thinking about me like:</div><div><br /></div><div>Vacuums think about sucking </div><div>like dark thinks about light</div><div>like flowers think about blooming</div><div>like rings think about bells</div><div>like bells think about ringing</div><div>like apples think about trees</div><div>and trees think about leaves</div><div><br /></div><div>If you're thinking about me</div><div><br /></div><div>then why are you wasting your time writing this poem</div><div><br /></div><div>instead of talking to me? </div><div><br /></div><div>But if this is your way of communicating, </div><div><br /></div><div>Then I'm thinking about you too. </div><div><br /></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-19145973932386635552012-02-04T17:30:00.003-07:002012-02-04T18:31:52.571-07:00Are You Impressed?<div style="text-align: center;"><span ><u><br /></u></span></div><br /><a href="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRXE45jk0h42BJyTQ--Az4dq3ENr0-eXtQrkfl3UJe7GMCvnizwgA"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 286px; height: 176px;" src="https://encrypted-tbn3.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRXE45jk0h42BJyTQ--Az4dq3ENr0-eXtQrkfl3UJe7GMCvnizwgA" border="0" alt="" /></a><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Everyone always says that FIRST IMPRESSIONS are everything. They say don't screw this up, because you never get a second chance to make a FIRST IMPRESSION. <div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">No pressure.</div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>Sweaty palms, twitchy knee, wandering eyes, hair twirling, nail biting, pen sucking, nervous. I hate FIRST IMPRESSIONS. If your trying to make a good FIRST IMPRESSION, are you being yourself? If someones meeting me for the first time, I have to think if I'm meeting the real person. Or are they putting on a show trying to make that good FIRST IMPRESSION? Who's real? </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;">FIRST IMPRESSIONS.</div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>People are getting so worked up, so nervous that they are becoming someone they aren't. Why judge the FIRST IMPRESSION? You could have ran into a woman, and thought she was Satan from hell, turns out she was the next Mother Teresa. The high school drop out, turns out to be the next millionaire. FIRST IMPRESSION of a girl next door, turns out to be vicious cougar. Give someone a chance. I'm a blubbering fool. Don't judge me by MY FIRST IMPRESSION. </div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn0.google.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTiTTpdW9wesyUcYLa7tKlyCoJvWbYSTgnzhmA7CKRyhZZM4Gwe" /> </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-59632175747657535262012-02-04T15:58:00.013-07:002012-02-04T17:21:15.460-07:00Cumbersome Love<span><span></span></span><iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/PsD0NpFSADM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen=""></iframe><div><br /></div><div><span ><br /></span></div><div><span ><b></b></span></div><span >Love.</span><div><span><span><br />You want an extra opinion on love, go watch this movie: (500) Days of Summer. Any scene from this movie I could have quoted, so I decided to just show you the trailer. All I can think of to write about love, is that I'm a believer. I don't know if I've ever felt it, but I've seen it. And I want it.</span></span></div><div><span><span><br /><span >Love.</span></span></span></div><div><span><span><br /><span > The most overused word. Love is cumbersome.</span></span></span><div><span><span > </span></span></div><div><br /></div></div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3727301249873879224.post-25520858723636838702012-01-24T19:17:00.002-07:002012-01-24T20:21:07.117-07:00Intro"If I have seen further, it is by standing on the shoulders of Giants." Sometimes we can't do things on our own. We need to start off somewhere, so why not allow the help from others? Why are we so afraid to ask for help? Are we ashamed? Embarrassed? Prideful? What good will it do if we go through life alone. What's the point. What are we trying to prove? Our strength? Or our we just showing our weakness? <div><br /></div><div>I chose the name Nathaniel after my brother. It was effortless to be around him. He was always the funny guy that could make you laugh when all you wanted to do was cry. The one some said, didn't have a serious bone in his body. Very few saw just how deep he could get. He's my hero. He didn't let people see him hurt. He never showed his weaknesses. He made life entertaining, and wasn't afraid to shoot high for his goals, or be blunt and tell you how it is. He makes me want to be a better person. Isn't that what a hero is? Someone you can look up to. Someone you know always has your back. No matter how much crap you get yourself into... </div><div><br /></div><div>Nathaniel</div>Alyssa http://www.blogger.com/profile/07370152788744998476noreply@blogger.com3